Devoted

Devoted Part of Speech: adjective Definition: committed, loyal



For well over 10 years now I have collected these guys in my life who are my best friends. They are brutally honest and always there to pick me up when I fall flat. I have never dated any of them; the universe has never lined up as to have that be an option so it has rarely been an issue. I have routinely said when explaining them to people that I am “in love” with all of these guys. I have been thinking about that statement lately and decided that wasn’t true. I do deeply love all of them but what I am is devoted. I would give them anything they asked for and there isn’t anything wouldn’t do for them. I treasure these friendships above all others. It is funny to me sometimes because I know that if any one of them were to all of a sudden say hey lets start dating I wouldn’t even blink. I mean who doesn’t want to be with someone who knows you that well. I just don’t see that ever happening. When I do start dating someone I tell them early on that I have these guys in my life and if you aren’t comfortable with that then we can’t be together. I would rather be single for the rest of my life than not have them in my life. No one person could ever fill what they are to me. It isn’t easy to become a part of that inner circle in my life, it takes an extreme amount of trust on my part to let that happen. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without these friendship. The circle may get bigger but it will not ever be smaller. It’s comforting and it always makes me smile. We should all be this lucky.

I am back… and damn I have missed me

Back at the start of the quarter I switched one of my meds and that was the biggest mistakes I could have made. This was the quarter I was taking Surgery and Anesthesia, where we assist with REAL animal surgeries. I also started working at school as an Animal care supervisor, not a good time to be messing with the status quo. The new meds seriously messed with my head. I was edgy and had a very short fuse. I didn’t like the way it made me feel and I was basically withdrawing from everything and when I wasn’t at school I was sleeping. I would make myself stay awake till Rob got home at 630 and would be in bed and asleep by 8 and would sleep straight through to my alarm. On weekends I would go to bed at 7 and sleep till 10am and take naps in the afternoon. I didn’t want to hang out with anyone and the biggest clue things were getting bad was the fact that I wasn’t excited at all for Halloween. If you know me you know I LIVE for carving pumpkins. That is when I couldn’t take it anymore and went back to the doctor and switched back. It was awful. Once I started to feel better I realized how much I was enjoying my classes and LOVE my job.
Over the last few weeks I have been going out, hanging with friends and just having a good time. I have seen Drew more in the last two weeks then I had in the last 3 months. It was when I was with Drew at DWI that I was once again being myself and happy, and it felt good to be me. I even got Rob to go out this weekend it was great. Kate I cursed you last week, I REALLY wanted to go out and get beer and I was striking out with all my boys and Rob was giving me the stink eye about all my options being boys and I was like “damn you Kate why did you have to go and move on me!!!” but that is ok he got over it. Being me is good. I am looking forward to having 2 weeks off from school (even though I will be working at school) and the start of the new quarter.

The Guys

The Guys are… Bill and Pete. I met The Guys when I was dating CGXBF. Pete was CGXBF’s roommate and Bill worked with Pete. Naturally they would hang out at CGXBF’s house so we would all end up hanging out together. I am a tomboy to the core so this thrilled me to no end. I have an unconfirmed feeling that after awhile it wasn’t that they invited CGXBF and put up with me but that they invited CGXBF so that they could hang out with me. I say that it’s unconfirmed, but when all was said and done, I got The Guys in the “divorce”. I also know that at least Bill and his wife wanted to beat the snot outta me for sticking with CGXBF for as long as I did. And that is why I love them.

Ok.. here is one my favorite The Guys stories.

It was a Friday night and I was supposed to hang out with CGXBF and The Guys but CGXBF was working late so I called him to see if he knew when he was going to be done. You see I knew that The Guys were going to be putting up a direct tv dish on the roof of CGXBF’s house, so I asked if I should just head over there and hang until he got home. He told me absolutely not, I was not to go to the house and I should forget about coming over he didn’t know when he was going to be home. Yeah… that pissed me off. So I decided screw that I would head over there anyway. ( I know it sounds like I was in the wrong by going over there anyway, but this wasn’t the first time he had told me I couldn’t hang out with the guys when he wasn’t there, that the guys didn’t want me there. I knew otherwise. I think he couldn’t deal with the idea that they might be MY friends and not just HIS friends that "put up with me for him" ) When I pulled up to the house The Guys were on the roof bolting down the dish. They greeted me and I took my position as BEER WENCH, I mean how can you expect people to install shit on the roof and not have beer. Over the next 3 hours we set up the dish and hung out on the roof drinking beer. I found out some truths that night, you see CGXBF had been telling me all these things that Pete didn’t like about me and Pete had no what I was talking about. Once it got dark someone had the nice idea to put this bright ass light on the roof with us, and it was shining in to the neighbors house. I was sure they were going to complain, but they didn’t. Twice while the 3 of us were sitting up there drinking our beer the cops rolled by, very….very… slowly. They didn’t stop but each time they did we rolled our beer off the back side of the roof. Rumble rumble rumble….crash and then we cracked up. I was having an awesome time. The best part of hanging with The Guys that night was I could totally let loose, they didn’t care and there was none of the pressure you can get when you’re the only girl. Then… CGXBF came home… he saw me on the roof and got PISSED, I failed to tell him I was going to his house anyway. He ended up sending me home soon after Bill left, but not before he told me that The Guys were mad I had been there all night. A fact I knew wasn’t true. Bill and I laugh about it to this day.

I miss The Guys