Devoted

Devoted Part of Speech: adjective Definition: committed, loyal



For well over 10 years now I have collected these guys in my life who are my best friends. They are brutally honest and always there to pick me up when I fall flat. I have never dated any of them; the universe has never lined up as to have that be an option so it has rarely been an issue. I have routinely said when explaining them to people that I am “in love” with all of these guys. I have been thinking about that statement lately and decided that wasn’t true. I do deeply love all of them but what I am is devoted. I would give them anything they asked for and there isn’t anything wouldn’t do for them. I treasure these friendships above all others. It is funny to me sometimes because I know that if any one of them were to all of a sudden say hey lets start dating I wouldn’t even blink. I mean who doesn’t want to be with someone who knows you that well. I just don’t see that ever happening. When I do start dating someone I tell them early on that I have these guys in my life and if you aren’t comfortable with that then we can’t be together. I would rather be single for the rest of my life than not have them in my life. No one person could ever fill what they are to me. It isn’t easy to become a part of that inner circle in my life, it takes an extreme amount of trust on my part to let that happen. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without these friendship. The circle may get bigger but it will not ever be smaller. It’s comforting and it always makes me smile. We should all be this lucky.

YAY

Finals are over! Yippie!! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I am looking forward to having the weekend off. we aren't going to rob's parents this weekend because of weather and because Duncan is sick. I was very happy that Rob's mom called and said it wouldn't be good idea to do all that driving because I didn't want to have tell rob he was going alone over a sick cat.

I am now playing egyption rat screw with Drew and his friend. I miss that game, I used to play it with the wrestlers. Drew played it when he was on the wrestling team in HS before I got there. :)

Friday Night Another DWI

Friday I went to another taping of Drinking With Ian and I had a blast. Drew and I went together as the hubby wasn’t feeling well. We started the night by having dinner at the chatterbox pub. I had the Sicilian Salad: Romaine lettuce tossed with sun dried tomatoes, crispy pepperoni, roasted green olives, feta, parmesan, shaved red onions, and roasted garlic, tossed with our balsamic merlot vinaigrette. I am telling that was the best salad I have ever had and I am not really a salad person. We went there so Drew could wish a friend a happy birthday but they went to the one in St Paul and we went to the one in mpls oops :)

DWI was a blast as always. I can’t remember the last time I laughed so hard my side hurt. Free drinks, free laughs, meeting and hanging out with really fun people and at one point I twisted my ankle but frankly it was well worth it. I can’t wait to do it again. :)

The list of things I don't miss about working in TV is truthfully endless, the list of things I do miss is very short and near to the top if not the top of that list is Ian. I loved playing his show, I love the concept behind the show and I miss him coming in to drop off new shows and brightening the end of my day.

Epitome grace and style

Saturday was a very interesting day.

Rob and I went to the Ren Fest. I love the fest. We hadn’t gone last year so I was really looking forward to going. We had a great time. We saw my two favorite acts the Tortuga Twins and the Danger Committee (formerly the Dew Drop Jugglers). I will not leave until I see them. :) and it was fantastic, very crude just the way it should be. We also ran in to my buddy Jess from school so that was neat. Drew had the nerve to do something else this weekend so we didn’t get to spend time with him at the fencing booth, boohoo.

At 8pm after we got home I decided that I should take a bath and start reading one of the many books I haven’t time for because of school. At 8:30 I really wanted something to drink so I grabbed a towel and went down stairs to grab a soda, when I hit the landing at the bottom I slipped when I stepped on the linoleum with wet feet. I screamed as I folded my foot in half tearing the tendons across the top of my foot , jamming my toe causing serious bone on bone contact, and sliding my arm on the floor causing a nice linoleum burn. In other words "HOLY FUCK THAT HURTS!!!". When I couldn’t move my foot without excruciating pain we made trip to the ER to make sure I hadn't broken anything. Nothing was broken but I have done serious injury to myself. I was in so much pain I was nauseous, the problem with that is the more pain I am in the more punchy I get, I crack jokes and make off hand comments and that leaves the medical staff believing I am in less pain then I am. I should know better than that by now and I should have asked for pain meds but I didn’t. 800mg of Ibuprofen every 4 hours only goes so far. And to add to my suffering I also manage to bang up my knee (the one that had ACL surgery) during the fall but that pain was WAY down on my list at the time. Therefore I have to wear my knee brace along with wrapping my foot and walking with crutches.

That is me.. always graceful

It’s finals week again

I have three finals this week. One tonight and two on Wednesday. I am less worried about tonight’s test because it is all multiple choice and one long answer and our teacher already gave us the gist of the long answer question. The other 2 scare me because of how those teachers make their tests. They aren’t as much hard as they are thorough. That is what makes them tough you just never feel like you have studied enough. You can read every page and go over the past tests and then you’ll run into a question and think, how the hell did I miss that. Don’t get me wrong I love all of my teacher, they just expect me to know a lot. This quarter has just flown by. It’s like we didn’t even have a summer. I am pretty sure I am going to get at least one A and 2 B’s. Next quarter I am taking surgery and anesthesia, we will have real animals lives in our hand. It’s kind of scary to think I am that far along in the program, but it also feels like a lifetime since I made the decision to go back to school. It is amazing how much happier I am then I was before I started school . The idea of going back to working in television makes me want to shoot myself. I bitch about having to get up and go to school but it is nothing like what I felt having to go in to my last station.

I had a great Birthday. I got my tattoo. I also had an awesome time with my friends on the 4th. We went to Old Chicago and it was the best birthday I have had in years. I love my friends. It was cool it was friends from school, Rob and friends from outside of school. Loved it. I can’t wait to do it again. :)

Happy Friday!!

I had a doctors appointment on Monday, nothing big just routine maintenance. Before my appointment I went to lunch with my buddy Drew. I miss Drew. Drew and I worked together when I was in high school. Drew went to the same high school but graduated before I got there. After HS I would run into Drew at least once a year we would hug share a “how ya been?” and that was the end of that. After I moved home my mom invited me to join her at a wedding of a good friend of my brother, and low and behold Drew was there. We talked and reconnected. My favorite band was going to be at the xcel center and I asked Drew if he wanted to go with me and we decided that it would be cool. At this point even though I had moved back to Minnesota from Bismarck I had gotten back together with CGXBF. When I told CGXBF that I was going to the concert with Drew, CGXBF said “good that means I don’t have to go”. He was in Bismarck there was no way he could go, but he didn’t (and never did) care that I was going out with another guy. At the concert it was almost like I just blinked and decided I was done with CGXBF. I was having a great time with a guy I have known for years at a concert of a band I adore. We were just being goofy waiting in line for Guster to sign some of my stuff and I looked at Drew and realized I hadn't been that happy or relaxed in ages. It felt a lot like when I would hang out with The Guys. I wasn't worrying about saying too much, acting too silly or making anybody mad. It was amazing, I guess I didn't notice how much of my personality I had been keeping in for the 3 years I was with CGXBF. The worst part of that weekend lasted 10 minutes and that is when I called CGXBF and told him I wasn't happy and that I was done. I was giddy and grinning, I called Bill and I just felt like a million bucks. I felt truly free. I took a step back and saw that wasn't as good as it was going to get for me. After that Drew and I would have lunch together once a week. When both worked in Eden Prairie and I miss him. Of all the people in my life I think Drew knows me better than anyone. Even better then Rob only because he has seen me go from crazy high school cheerleader to depressed and lonely to self confident and in love. Everyone should have a friends like that.

Oh and on a side note….
Today I am in theory having drinks with Bill. Now the last two times we were to go out he had other things he needed to do. Work and family… that selfish bastard! Kidding! I love the guy.