nerves

Mom has been gone a week and my head hasn’t exploded. That is a good sign. It was on the brink…. But I made it. I have one more week. I should be ok, as long a co-worker doesn’t do anything else to raise my blood pressure.

Last night I went to the 30th birthday party of my 7th grade boyfriend, we called it “going together” then so I don’t know if that qualifies as a true BF. We never even held hands. I’ll just say he was one of my best friends in Jr. high. I hadn’t seen Nick since our high school graduation. Almost 12 years. One of Nick’s good friends, Justin, is one of my myspace buddies. We knew each other in HS as well, he was a year behind Nick and I, anyway he told me about Nick’s little bash and I thought what the heck I’ll be the flash from the past. I thought it was going to be REALLY weird…. It was at first but then it was really cool. I got to talk with Nick’s sister and his parents, who I LOVED back in the day. They are just the sweetest people ever. I got to talk and hang out with Justin and meet his girl friend, who is also very cool. I had a really good time. It was random, but good. Funny thing is the day before another one of my really good friends form Jr. high said he might be visiting this summer. I guess I hung out with good people when I was 12&13.

Now… on Monday Rob and I are going to talk to the admissions/sales people about me going back to school. I’m a little freaked out to say the least. I have been getting nothing but support and encouragement from everyone I have told, but I am still scared. I keep thinking, “what if I am too old to learn new things?”, “will I just be wasting our money?”
I just don’t know if I can clam these nerves.